Experiencing a loss

Many of you don't know I lost my mother this pass August. As the final months have been very hard and I haven't been on the blog to post anything I finally realize that it's almost the end of the year. Unfortunately, with my mother gone and her birthday that had just passed on Dec 5th and Christmas is soon, the holidays don't feel the same without her. My mother had always loved Christmas. It wasn't because of the whole commerical thing, but it was all about Jesus. I grew up knowing what the true meaning of Christmas was. However, my mom was well prepared with decorations, and made decorating the Christmas tree a big thing. I remember many times with my brother decorating the tree together, but mostly it had been with my mother. I remember going to church late at night and coming home and going to bed and waking up on Christmas morning and see the loads of presents under the tree for me. And of course my brother also. LOL. I thank God that I had a chance to experience the memories that I had. I still cry for her and I'm not ashamed of saying it. I know it's going to be hard and to lose my mother before 30 years old was something I never was prepared for. She died of natural causes but she wasn't in the hospital or sick like that so I wasn't prepared for it. Well I guess that's how it goes.